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Friday, May 11th, 2007
3:09 pm	Y, Y, Y, Y, Y....you ran away...and I wonder.. Y the last man, is fucking awesome. The new trade came out and I grabbed the last one on the shelf. I'm very happy that I got it and don't have to wait, although I do have to wait for the next one after that, and I think that's the last trade. I re-read 1/2 the first one again before I lent it out to a friend, and am excited to read it again. It's one of them comics you can do that with. Aside from that, it my neighbors might get evicted for having shows. This sucks for us. Overall, they've been the better tenants to our shared landlady. But our landlady is crazy. I want to own property kinda, but just so I don't have to deal with these stupid landowners and there petty ways. Fucking hate it. Aside from landowners though, life is great. My house is completely drama free. I love hanging out with everyone and there's music going on all the time. Everyone likes to hang out with eachother. We'll be looking for a new roomate in July, but already have 2 people that fit the household fairly well that are interested. However, they're both males and we only have 1 female living there so I told them I'd prefer to give preference to a female if we find a cool one that's interested. Ok enough for me Later, Love Ben (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 9th, 2007
9:52 am	the thing about me is that I'm kinda awsome. Thiings are going fairly well at the moment. Me and Christina have been working on our relationship alot, premempting some problems that we saw comming up, which is really nice. I love being in a relationship where I can express my feelings and fears, and that they get heard and listened to. I love that she works so hard to make the relationship work, and recognizes that I do to. And every comprimise that I have made for this relationship to work has been well worth it. Something I wouldn't think I'd say, considering I never believed much in comprimise. compromise? anyhow that's it for me later, Love Ben (Comment on this)
Monday, April 30th, 2007
12:42 am	noobs I got a friend that used to squat with me, staying at my house right now. It's a bit wierd, or rather he's a bit strange right now. He's got 8 days clean and he left his gf. He's trying to get clean and she smokes pot so he feels he can't get clean at his house with her there. So I let him stay with me for a few days even though there are people drinking and stuff at my house. I told him it's not the best place but he kinda had no where else to go. But, I wasnt' there when he got there so I had my room mate let him upstairs. When I came home, I found him sitting on the floor venting his problems to my two room mates who know little to nothing about adiction or NA. It was pretty odd. Anyhow, they had a semi-horrified look on there face as he was probably 1/2 hour into his problems. I successfully changed the topic but my room mates quickly took the opportunity of my arrival to book it out of there and go to sleep. Oh well... what can you do. later, Love Ben Current Mood: jubilant (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 28th, 2007
9:26 am	I feel smarter I just read some shit from wikepedia for about a 1/2 hour.... and let me tell you I feel smarter. I honestly can barely comprehend what I read. It was about intergers, exponents, floating-point composition, and the two's complementary system. Now, here's the cool thing. I don't really know what I read, but... I understand it better than most people. So I can now go outside and talk to Acts of Sedition(cause they're right outside) and be like blah blah blah, and they'll be like damn Ben is hella smarter than me. And really I'll just totally be miss qouting shit and kinda making it up. But, they won't know. And neither will my room mates who will also fall victim to my splooging of useless but interesting information. Thank you Kelly for giving me 3 cool links in Wikepedia, and thank you to Wikepedia itself for making me feel smart. love -Ben (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 16th, 2007
6:38 pm	I'm Back It may be only for a day but I'm gonna try and make a comeback here on livejournal.  I'm at work now, and bored.  I won't really have any other oportunities like this at work so we'll see how dilligent I can be at home.  Anyways, my life is good for the most part... I got kids comming in now I gotta go love Ben (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
3:26 am	my work lately man this shit is fun! Current Mood: jubilant Current Music: stuff... you know (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
1:26 pm	hello yall Bi/Slightly Straight You scored 10 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight) For the most part, you are bisexual. You have a slight preference for the opposite gender, but either gender would suit you. If you are sexually inexperienced, it is possible that this will change after you do some experimenting. My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 31% on Orientation Link: The Sexuality Spectrum Test written by tall_man_54 on OkCupid Free Online Dating Current Mood: wo wo Current Music: boo (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
3:06 pm	joking around I'm at school, I'm always at school now days. It's about all I do. I'm almost done with this fucking movie, I can't wait aaaahhhh!!!!! too much to do... ok not going to think about school for a minute. I talked to my dad today, if you don't know I only met my dad for the first time when I was 21... so it's a little strange especially with 2 of the 5 yrs I've known him spent not communicating. I still think about my little brother, it's wierd knowing he knows about me but that we don't talk. it kinda sucks, and my lil' sis too. One day the bastard son will know what it's like... well it was good talking to him today, I wished him a happy fathers day and birthday, I guess he turned 50 yesterday and had a big surprise party, it made me really want to be there. alright back to class, school aaaaahhh!!! Later, Love Ben Current Mood: oooh touched for the very.. Current Music: like a virgin (Comment on this)
Monday, June 13th, 2005
4:24 pm	I don't know I'm at school, and I've been in a strange funk lately. I'm not bad, but not great. People continuously dissapoint me, and I need to get used to it. I can't focus myself on myself, I get frustrated everytime I do. I heard this guy talking about how it's hard for him to even enjoy a conversation. I totally felt that, and it puts things into perspective, that it's all the way I look at it. Or maybe less controlling than that, it's just where I'm at. I had a strange idea about time and space and how everything is happening at once we're just chickens with our heads cut off and we're playing out the actions of an event that took place a long time ago. It makes everything kinda funny in that context. I found out that of course not only had people already thought about that perspective, but it's a dominant theory in astral physics. I feel smart for thinking about it on my own. but it's not that big a deal. I have also come to realize I have a fear of finding out things about people, that I feel I should have known already. I'll explain that another time when I have more time. Later, Love Ben Current Mood: go go Current Music: mo mo fo sho sho (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 26th, 2005
11:37 am	doin' good I again felt like extreme shit last night. A lot of people seem to be falling around me and there's nothing I can do about it. I compared how I was feeling last night, to holding up a circus tent with a pole and having it fall around me no matter how hard I tried to keep it up. top it off with it feeling like a really important tent, and you see me dilema. anyways, depsite whats happening with SOME of the people around me, others are doing really well, and I am espesially doing really well. I got an A in my english class, and the best part about it was that the teacher acknowledged how hard I was working. I was talking to a friend of mine last night about overwhelming emotions, and how when you have a million feeling happening at once, its hard to tell what's what and you want to just throw them all in a trash can and not have any of them at all. Say fuck it, too much. But there's good feelings too, like an anchor, or a focus point. If your holding on to a really good feeling you can fly like peter pan through any sort of internal pain you're going through and not deny and fly past it, but acknowledge it and heal it. ok later, Ben Current Mood: with an icepick Current Music: clawing legs (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 22nd, 2005
8:24 am	I feel better, for the most part (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 21st, 2005
2:37 pm	I hate people today. Not all of them, but as a majority, they SUCK!!! I feel like I'm watching one of my best friends fall away, slowly sink into quick sand. When you reach the bottom of quick sand, your alone. You can't even breathe but for a while you're not dead, just limp. Your conscious is awaiting nothingness, and you are completely alone. You want so bad to not be alone, any touch of numbing will do, humanity would be better but less plossible. If you can reach out of the quick sand you're likely to bring anyone down with you that you can. If you get out of the quick sand, if someone helps you out of the quicksand... If anyone saves your life, how much do you owe them? I don't know the answer to that question, but it's killing me watching others answer it so boldly. We, as humans, more often than not, make bold statements in our actions with out forthought of consequences. If someone saves your life, what do you owe? This cannot be answered on a whim... it can not be discarded, and yet it is so rare that someone would actually acknowledge the event, say "yes, my life was saved today!" I know it's too serious to think about, I take life on a whim most days, do whatever "feels right." Today I just feel like I'm watching a zillion friends sink in quicksand, I don't know if I'm in it too, but it all just sucks. On the brighter side, there is a few people that give me hope. I'm happy about them, and there will always be someone, I'm just tired. anyways, don't give me advice, this is my venting machine, let me just vent! Current Mood: daloodalooo Current Music: toodaloo (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 16th, 2005
11:33 pm	yep yep, I still rule! just because I can!!! Current Mood: other stuff Current Music: stuff (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
2:15 pm	just wanted to say I rule!!! Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: how much I rule!! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 7th, 2005
3:33 am	hello hello hello is there anybody in there? Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 66% Stability |||||||||||||| 60% Orderliness |||||| 23% Empathy |||||||||||||||| 70% Interdependence |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 70% Mystical |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Artistic |||||||||||||||| 70% Religious || 10% Hedonism |||||| 23% Materialism |||||||||||||| 56% Narcissism |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Work ethic |||||| 30% Self absorbed |||||||||| 36% Conflict seeking |||||| 30% Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56% Romantic |||||||||||||||| 63% Avoidant |||||||||||||||||| 76% Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Wealth |||||| 30% Dependency |||||||||||||||||| 76% Change averse |||||||||||||||| 70% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 70% Individuality |||||||||||||||| 70% Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 70% Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||| 70% Physical security |||||||||||| 50% Food indulgent |||||||||||||||| 63% Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 70% Paranoia |||||||||||||| 56% Vanity |||||||||||||||||| 76% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||| 43% Female cliche |||||||||| 36% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com unfortunatly it doesn't say what it said underneath the test about the personality results but it was dead on notice my highest attributes are both narcissistic AND mystical!!! awsome ! try it and see :) Current Mood: awake Current Music: nothing at all but tired as hell (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
6:31 pm	school and more yes this junky bastard is now in school, and on my way to earning a bachelors. I had to pay a shit ton of money to get a decent education, because I fucked up so badly in the past, but I have finally done it. I'm gonna earn a real bachelors. So, let's hope this goes well, first day of class was very managable. I think I did well, and I'm on top of my shit. I felt a little disoriented and I did go to class 3 hours to early, but that's ok I went back home, regrouped, and showed up for the right class later. Also I got 1 yr free of drugs/alcohol. woo-hoo!!! it feels good. I'm not going to have much time these days, so it'll be interesting. Let's see how it goes. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: I have no patients to right anymore (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 15th, 2005
10:51 pm	Memo: Beware april!!! did I warn people of april yet? I can't type for too long here so I'll just say, look, anything bad that has happened to you or will happen to you between now and april, could probably only happen in april. that's right, april is a horrid horrid month. May is a rebuilding point, and the rest of the year gets better from there. It makes sense, cause the global new years is in april. Destruction brings creation into the new year.... I've decided it's not a bad thing, although april as an entity which I've come to believe in, is pure evil, it's only one small part of life. and life I believe is good. so to all my friends, duck and cover and beware the strange occurances of april, it'll all be over soon later, Love Ben ps I'm going to college despite aprils efforts, I think.... April is still trying to fuck me over big!!! Current Mood: sore Current Music: Magic: the gathering (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 2nd, 2005
5:44 am	a new title goes here I almost wrote titles to the blurbs which I had already used... so that's what you get. I missed a good show for no reason at all really, I just kinda was burnt. I'm ok with it, but very few people will understand. I saw sin city, that was a good movie, comics are better of course. I got into the school I was trying to get into, I got the acceptance call today, letter in the mail. Now I just gotta find a decent loan and I'm on my way to having a career, exciting. My family is in town and I gotta spend time with them, that'll be interesting, I love them, but I prefer to love them in a stay the fuck away from me, I'll here what's up through the grapevine kinda way. But, I guess I can deal with them for a couple hours, no biggie. well that's it Current Mood: touched Current Music: horoginous zone (Comment on this)
Friday, March 18th, 2005
12:16 pm	hrmm You scored as atheism. You are... an atheist, though you probably already knew this. Also, you probably have several people praying daily for your soul. Instead of simply being "nonreligious," atheists strongly believe in the lack of existence of a higher being, or God. </td> atheism 71% Satanism 67% Buddhism 67% agnosticism 63% Paganism 58% Islam 46% Judaism 33% Christianity 29% Hinduism 29% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: herm (2 Comments |Comment on this)
10:49 am	we are the aqua team!! You Are Master Shake The Ultimate Aqua Teen Hunger Force Quiz brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: hyper Current Music: my farts in the wind (5 Comments |Comment on this)